Coastly Feelings- version 3 (i think)

[Brokenhearts]

Costly Feelings

My life is spinning out of control
My thoughts are unsightly
Holding to the seams of my mind
Hugging my body tightly

I want to be free
I want to be home
I want my body back
I don’t wanna be alone

Feeling trapped feeling caged
Feeling confusion feeling loss
Being different
Has a cost

I don’t like losing
But if I lose all this
I’d be more than estatic
As this life just takes the piss

People who surround me
They all have things to say
I don’t want to listen
But life just doesn’t work that way

Feeling trapped feeling caged
Feeling confusion feeling loss
Being different
Has a cost

Through lowered eyes I watch them
My insides loudly screaming
For them to leave me be
Yet they all just carry on teasing

I hate this emotion
This anger boiling
My heart ready to burst
My soul slowly spoiling

Feeling trapped feeling caged
Feeling confusion feeling loss
Being different
Has a cost

Yes I am detatched
There’s nothing for me to hold
I gotta make it on my own
My life has been sold

I’m not myself at home
I can never be
I try to be heard
But it’s me they cannot see

Feeling trapped feeling caged
Feeling confusion feeling loss
Being different
Has a cost

For now I’ll give up
For now I’ll stop trying
I’ll take control of me later
And I’ll carry on hiding

I am different
That’s me as I always knew
This might be the cost
But… I’ll see it through