Post by Ethan on Aug 20, 2007 12:12:31 GMT -5
ok...I've been really depressed the past few days (since friday to be exact...) and I wrote this, and it made me feel better...its really short, but yeah...comment please
"My name is John, and I am about to die."
His tears blur his vision, making it difficult for him to see his own words, as his wrist scribbles quickly. He needs not to worry for much longer, his pain will fade, but his words must not. He knows now what he needs; the cold steel presses against his temple, his finger playing cautiously at the trigger.
"My life has not been an easy one, and I know I am taking the coward's way out. But the pain is too much, I cannot bear it any longer."
He wants to end it now, to be rid of this world, and it's evils, but he cannot, not yet. Between sobs and fits he writes, relishing in the fact that his pain will soon end. His suffering must not be in vain, so he carries on.
"For too long have I suffered, and I have lost too much. My entire life has never had meaning, but, in my last words, my death will."
Why had it come to this? He wonders to himself. Why had he not been meant for something greater? Why had his dreams been nothing more than that of pipes? He had been a good man, and he knew it. Never missing church, never wanting more than he needed, and never thinking a dark thought...until recently...he had been a decent human being. But, no matter what he had not done, the facts still remained.
"I pose a question: is the pain we shield, and the roads we choose not to take, worth being alone in the end? Why must we live for the future, and make the present miserable? It is a never ending cycle, and a vicious one at that."
His wife had left him for his brother, he had lost his job due to mechanization, and he was being evicted from his apartment in 24 hours time. The man chuckles at the last thought, as it won't matter where he will rest his head, not after tonight.
"Follow your heart, take the risk you know you shouldn't, it may all be worth it in the long run."
The gun is his friend, and the bullet is his release from this world. From a world that no longer wants him, he will depart. To where, he does not know. The man dreams, and hopes, that God will still want him, that, somehow, this is what was planned for him, that this is how it must end.
"And, no matter what you do, remember these words. If you say you do not want to leap off of the cliff because you are afraid of the impact, then you will never experience the rush of the fall."
His hand comes to a stop once he approaches the end of his message. All that is left is to sign his name. He writes, “love,” then stops, rubbing it out with the pink, soft end of of his pencil, he substitutes it with,
"Forever damned,
John."
And with that, he releases himself from this world, and his pain stops.
"My name is John, and I am about to die."
His tears blur his vision, making it difficult for him to see his own words, as his wrist scribbles quickly. He needs not to worry for much longer, his pain will fade, but his words must not. He knows now what he needs; the cold steel presses against his temple, his finger playing cautiously at the trigger.
"My life has not been an easy one, and I know I am taking the coward's way out. But the pain is too much, I cannot bear it any longer."
He wants to end it now, to be rid of this world, and it's evils, but he cannot, not yet. Between sobs and fits he writes, relishing in the fact that his pain will soon end. His suffering must not be in vain, so he carries on.
"For too long have I suffered, and I have lost too much. My entire life has never had meaning, but, in my last words, my death will."
Why had it come to this? He wonders to himself. Why had he not been meant for something greater? Why had his dreams been nothing more than that of pipes? He had been a good man, and he knew it. Never missing church, never wanting more than he needed, and never thinking a dark thought...until recently...he had been a decent human being. But, no matter what he had not done, the facts still remained.
"I pose a question: is the pain we shield, and the roads we choose not to take, worth being alone in the end? Why must we live for the future, and make the present miserable? It is a never ending cycle, and a vicious one at that."
His wife had left him for his brother, he had lost his job due to mechanization, and he was being evicted from his apartment in 24 hours time. The man chuckles at the last thought, as it won't matter where he will rest his head, not after tonight.
"Follow your heart, take the risk you know you shouldn't, it may all be worth it in the long run."
The gun is his friend, and the bullet is his release from this world. From a world that no longer wants him, he will depart. To where, he does not know. The man dreams, and hopes, that God will still want him, that, somehow, this is what was planned for him, that this is how it must end.
"And, no matter what you do, remember these words. If you say you do not want to leap off of the cliff because you are afraid of the impact, then you will never experience the rush of the fall."
His hand comes to a stop once he approaches the end of his message. All that is left is to sign his name. He writes, “love,” then stops, rubbing it out with the pink, soft end of of his pencil, he substitutes it with,
"Forever damned,
John."
And with that, he releases himself from this world, and his pain stops.