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Post by Angie on Oct 13, 2006 14:12:13 GMT -5
Lol, die? Lol, wow, you recovered fast.
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Post by eakyra on Oct 13, 2006 16:05:40 GMT -5
Well Angie, We went out for a grand total of 10 hours. There wasnt much to recover from. He's a jerk.
And I wouldnt say im falling for another guy, I just like em. He's really diffrent. He's a country boy. Way diffrent then my usual grungy bad boy comedian.
Die? I just wrote alot on one tiny pm. ;D
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Post by eakyra on Oct 13, 2006 23:36:24 GMT -5
It makes me feel really happy that I've made a new friend today. His name is John Sapphire. ;D And I really wish I could stop thinking about Scott. Im freakin hopeless.
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Post by eakyra on Oct 16, 2006 15:00:50 GMT -5
Im still really hopeless. Now, when im not thinking about him, im dreaming about him. I was really mad at my roomate, but hopefully it will subside. Im just tired of comming home and nothings done. He doesnt do anything. Ever. Unless he knows im getting pissed about it. Work this week will be utter hell. Joy to the world. Its homecomming week.
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Post by eakyra on Oct 16, 2006 22:58:57 GMT -5
Ok so its been another exciting day.
Woke up around 1:30, got online. Then made macaroni and cheese. Cleaned up the apartment. Got online again. Got ready for work. Went to work. Now im at work.
Isnt my life thrilling?
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Post by Denithar on Oct 16, 2006 23:21:04 GMT -5
College life isn't exactly varied either. At least I have four strange siblings that I come home to who can give my life some "interesting" perspective. (I mean this completely positively. I love my sisters and brother.)
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Post by eakyra on Oct 17, 2006 2:18:40 GMT -5
Well, I am also in college. So I have to agree with you.
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Post by eakyra on Oct 24, 2006 23:19:18 GMT -5
Ok so my best friends are having mucho trouble, I need a friend to talk to about all my issues, but everyones to busy tending to their own or turning to me for solutions. Ugg. Stress relief pill please!
I... *sigh*... am to tired to write.
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Post by eakyra on Oct 26, 2006 22:02:23 GMT -5
I really need someone to talk to, who I can just sit down and spill my guts out too. Someone who will let me cry on their shoulder and blow my nose on their sleeve. Who will hold me and tell me its ok. Because right now, I just want to jump off a cliff. And I really have no idea why. I just feel... horrid. My little kitty kat icon isnt even making me smile!!!
I think I need to cry... for a few hours... and I'll be ok. Maybe not... I dont know.
Im falling, someone catch me please. Im not ready for this...
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Post by Denithar on Oct 27, 2006 8:19:08 GMT -5
I can't think of anything encouraging to say. I'll be praying for you to find strength, and a decent chap.
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Post by eakyra on Oct 27, 2006 12:43:19 GMT -5
I just felt miserable yesterday night. Just like all the happiness in my soul had been ripped away and replaced with this pain that I cant describe. I dont know whats wrong with me. I have absolutely no reason to be like this. Im actually happy! And im happy at work but then something happens... I dont know. Its the second time i've done that and im so tired of it. Im scared if it gets worse Im going to hurt myself. Because thats all I feel like doing whenever that comes over me. I dont want it. Im not like that. Im stronger than that.
I hope it doesnt happen tonight. I think i've been drained of tears.
Other than this weirdness thats happening to me, I feel dandy. I had lunch with my mom today. Im going to go home and sleep a bit more before I have to go to work. And I got to see my kitty kat!!! I love my Toby. Tomorrow is going to be fun... not. I hate working Saturdays... anyhoo.
Den, thanks for being there for me. And thanks for your prayers. I dont know whats wrong. Im never like this. Never! And its confusing the heck out of me...
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Post by eakyra on Oct 27, 2006 23:17:08 GMT -5
I feel better today. No strange feeling yet. ;D Hot chocolate must have curred me. ITS SO FREAKIN COLD!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! UGGGGGGGGGG!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
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Post by eakyra on Oct 30, 2006 23:59:35 GMT -5
Im so tired of being pathetic when It comes to men.
I really really like this guy though!!!! I think he likes me too... im not 100 % though.
So I finally had a spill of the beans to my guru. Everything that was on my mind... I just let it go. And I felt better afterwards. Plus the meditation was amazing.... *drools* Literally... I drooled all over my face and the blanket.
Anyhoot. This weekends going to be fun. Lots and lots of work. Woohoo.
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Post by Denithar on Oct 31, 2006 21:21:20 GMT -5
What's your Guru like?
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Post by eakyra on Oct 31, 2006 23:27:39 GMT -5
Well let me tell you. ;D
My Guru, is the most incredible divine entity I have every met. When I say divine entity, I say that because I am devoted to her divine self, not her personality. She gives me courage, strength, and is always there for me when I need guidance. I really dont know a proper way to describe her. Other than, she has changed my life and made me who I am today. She opened me up to God, and God within me. She is my spiritual guide and I am grateful everyday that I have found her once again in this lifetime.
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